I used to feel worried and anxious about time passing. I had so much I wanted to do and accomplish that perseverated in my mind but it constantly clashed and conflicted with the life obligations and responsibilities I felt that seemed mundane; I yearned to be in the sacred. In that period of my life, I felt like I was under water with debris floating on the surface bumping and crashing together and preventing me from coming up for air, “What about me, what about me, what about me?”
When I think back now, I can feel the cold, murky dank closing in around me. I can feel the word “Help” on my lips, long and drawn-out, as I sink. But then, I just called that life. “It's just my way” I used to say to myself and others. I used to wonder, “Why didn't anyone help me? Why didn't anyone really see me drowning? Why didn't anyone take my hand and help me rise?”
Today, I know the answer. It has been and continues to be revealed to me daily: “Through your struggle, you fought. From your struggle, you rose. Because of your struggle, your hand is offered. Easily, you reach to others; plunging your hand down into the dark, cold water, swiping aside the debris, finding fingers, clasping the hand and pulling up. You connect soul-to-soul. And you help heal, offering others soul-connection. This is your healing; you are a Healer.”
It has taken me years, hundreds of hours, thousands of minutes, millions of seconds to accept. And still, surely, I question, can it be true? Who am I to help heal? Each time now, though, the answer comes to me easily. Who am I to help heal? I am one who is ready and willing. Willing to hold a hand in soul-connection not with answers, but with love. I have learned that confidence does not come from expertise and surface accomplishments. It comes from deep belief, in self, in love, in face, in mind, body, and from soul. I no longer have to be right, or to get it right every time. I just have to stay connected to my own soul (now, I have tools for this)! And I radiate.
The biggest surprise was realizing that all of my earlier deep yearning for success, accomplishments, achievement, and recognition has become soothed with the same aging I used to fear! The passing of time has supported me! As I committed to getting onto a path of calm, of peace, and of joy, my mind quieted. I felt better and better and made more and more impact! Now, I see clearly that my aging has supported my personal growth, wisdom gleaned and gained, to be shared and spread through healing.
The passing of time, with my children grown and gone has allowed me to find my breath, open all of my senses to realize that my success with just one soul--in my coaching, training or in my courses--is more than good enough; it is full and complete. I accomplished and achieved daily what I thought I would never achieve in a lifetime. Offering one human healing through soul-to-soul connecting and their personal soul-connection is an entirely complete experience and achievement, each and every time. Full success in every moment. I no longer fear time passing. I no longer fear aging. My time is here and now. And when my time is over, I will be complete.